Tuesday, May 29, 2007

My Violent Heart

Is it wrong for a woman to call a time out in a fledgling relationship? Or are they perceived as the "bad guy" in the same way the man is when he breaks up a relationship.
For months I have struggled to find balance with someone I could call my other half. Despite our identical interests, we just could not agree on a level of intimacy. There were times when it seemed that he could not control himself despite my pleas to slow down. There were two instances in the past where he got in my face and verbally accused me of not being honest. Yet I still feel that he continues to push and pull me back and forth with talk of romance.
Finally I told him I could not do it anymore. I was in a long distance relationship before and it broke my heart when I accepted the fact I could not be with that person. He did not scream or plead, he was silent and said alright. I left and told him that I was sorry and that I still care about him. I just cannot see myself dating him right now.

I hope he understands.

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